Sunday, February 19, 2012

For Such a Time as This

Have you ever made a decision in your life that pushed you so far outside of your comfort zone that you knew there was no coming back?  You closed your eyes, held your breath, and prayed for the best? Thoughts cross your mind like:  "What the heck was I thinking?" "I've made a huge mistake!" "Can I get a do-over??" I felt that way when I saw the first share on facebook....there's no coming back from this one....

And just when I decided to hit the delete button and sweep it all under the rug like a good little church girl would, it was like I heard a voice whisper in my ear: "for such a time as this!"  It was my 'life verse.' (Esther 4:14) The Word of God came to my rescue.  I began to think of Queen Esther, and how she looked death in the face in an effort to save her people.  And she did it afraid.

A warrior rose up in me as I asked my King (Jesus) to give me grace and favor as King Ahaseurus did Esther. "If I perish, let me perish" (vs.16)  I know there will be some casualties of war. I've been supported by some, rebuked by others. All of which started out in "my camp." The truth is, it was inevitable. It is my defining moment. My basic training is complete.  It is time for battle...

"For if you remain completely silent at this time, relief and deliverance will arise for the Jews from another place, but you and your father's house will perish.  Yet who knows whether you have come to the kingdom for such a time as this?" (Esther 4:14)

I would love to hear about your defining moments.  What "battle" has God called you to?

Being razed...


  1. I recently started sharing my own blog, my journey as a Christian struggling with the effects of Borderline Personality Disorder, more publicly and was afraid of taking that final step to share in on Facebook. I had enjoyed the anonymity of being able to write and sort of keep that part of my life away from the people whose opinions clearly mattered too much.

    As I began to write more, the Holy Spirit gently began to nudge me to see that my story is important and I might be keeping someone from reaching out by not reaching out myself. So, very recently I posted my first link and did a recap of what people would find there. I've decided not to hide anymore and to share what Jesus puts on my heart with anyone who is willing to read.

  2. I realize I am coming late to this party, but I wanted to reply. God has called us to the "battle" in the world of foster care and orphan care. We get strange looks everytime we are out in public, but it is the strange looks and comments that we received inside the church walls that were the most troublesome. I applaud your decision to take up the armor and head in to battle and shed light on the sin that is so easily accepted in parts of the Body. If we are going to take the Word for what it is, then we must take ALL of it...not just the parts that make us comfortable. May we all be open to what God is teaching us through each other. "as iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another". Proverbs 27:17

  3. Thanks for your honest sharing. We have our 'battle', with our beautiful, now 30 years old, daughter, who is autistic. There have been Many moments when I have wanted to show anger, revenge, cutting remarks, etc, to people who were thoughtless, an even cruel. But you are right, God has told us to turn the cheek, and leave the grief with Him! And for that we can be so very grateful!